It is getting better. To that end, I managed to get my Regional Webminister and MIT reports out on time this Quarter. I am choosing to stand on my own two feet even if I don't feel like it. Self doubt and loneliness make me feel undesirable and worthless but I can let those feelings stop me. If I am already in pain, walking through fire is not so scary. The only way to know if there is something better on the other side, is to try.
Right now, all I can do is make the best of what I have. Its not much, but it is a start.